| first goal reached |
[Jan. 3rd, 2010|08:30 pm] |
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I've reached my first goal weight. 100 pounds yay! I guess I'm pretty of happy about it but I don't feel as excited as I thought I would. But I am happy because I know that if I could reach my first goal, I can reach my second goal (especially now that the holidays are over!!) |
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| wooooo |
[Jan. 2nd, 2010|01:42 pm] |
Just picked up some size THREE pants
:)
down from a five,
boooyyahhh! |
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[Jan. 2nd, 2010|10:53 am] |
5'3"
CW: 113
HW: 135
LW: 112
GW: 100
I woke up this morning feeling fat and bloated. I got oatmeal from Starbucks. Comes with brown sugar, dried fruit and almonds (each wrapped separately). I used a quarter of each and even had oatmeal leftover that I didn't eat.
I looked at old pictures and thought, "haha, I am so glad I don't have those arms anymore." Then looked at my right arm. I've lost over 10 lbs, why can't these f'n arms look better? I compare myself to these two old friends of mine, who are beautiful and skinny. I'm 113 today, still have fat, still have 36D boobs, and I look 130 compared to them. WHY??? Is my scale broken? LOL |
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| New Year, new start? |
[Dec. 31st, 2009|12:54 pm] |
Right so today it's new years eve (well it is in the UK, not sure where some of you are out there)
Just wondering that everyones new years resolutions are going to be?
mine? well number 1) lose weight, think thin and stay thin this time!
2) Post more on this!
3) Concentrate a lot more on my dancing! (burns calories too!! )
4) Be happy? well make myself happy, not what anyone tries to tell me if being under 100 lbs is making me happy then under 100 lbs i shall be! (:
Hears to a happy and thin new year guys and girls!
Good luck in 2010, stay strong and starve on!
xx |
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| Why oh Why? |
[Dec. 30th, 2009|01:13 pm] |
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Why is it that people always tell you how you can lose weight, then once you've lost the weight, they tell you that you need to gain more? Make up your mind.. Better yet, either be happy for me, or shut the hell up! |
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[Dec. 28th, 2009|11:59 am] |
So i just got back home (to Vancouver) and im watching TV and I see an add for a show called "Big Happy Family" or something-a show about a family of extremely large African American's with a catchline along the lines of 'trying to fit in' or 'accepting' i guess.
Has anyone else seen this? Im not sure what its about--are they trying to show that "big people are normal/happy/great too"?? Or "the struggles of being larger"?? (which seems a bit insulting) or is it a health show on changing their lifestyles? I watch a lot of shows on bigger or very unhealthy people (Big Medicine, You Are What You Eat...) because its motivating to NOT become that way, but this show really rubs me the wrong way...like they are trying to show America that big people have feelings too? And that theyre fine and happy the way they are??? All I can think about is the health issues coming down the line in association to their weight and it makes me feel sad...
Have you seen any situations where people are emphasizing how great it is to be a bigger person?
I dont mean slightly chubby, or curvy models, i mean obese.
How does it make you feel? Awkward? Confused? Sad? Happy? |
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[Dec. 27th, 2009|09:38 pm] |
Hey! How has everyone been over the busy season?
I dont celebrate christmas so i visited with my SO's family during that time (Im jewish). We had a ton of absolutely fantastic food that I purged up afterwards because he lives in a lovely three story house with a bathroom on the top floor. I feel like the more great food im offered, the more willing i am to binge. At least it didnt turn in to a big issue. Anyone else have this coping mechanism?
How did everyones' holidays go? How are you going to deal with new years? Please tell me anything and everything! I like to keep this community busy and chatting and getting to know one another. I am going to a friends and we usually either stay in or go out to a club-either way we get pissed drunk-which is not awful when you dont eat and you drink gin and tonics, but then after i always want to binge. Does anyone have any tips or tricks for dealing with large groups of friends?
I know this is a goofy question but im at my SO's right now and am tipsy off a shot of gin with diet ginger ale. I just got back from a weeks Vaca and i want to see how everyone is doing. It seems we have some new members but i havent been able to go back and check everything!!!
p.s.
Anyone got any good boxing day/week shopping? I got a nice winter bomber jacket in small...what a goofy sizing, i am def a medium not a small. I feel sorry for the 'real' small girls, it must be awful to find like an xxxs. |
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[Dec. 27th, 2009|01:22 am] |
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Usually I hate winter break and the holidays, but I've been so busy lately that I've hardly had anytime for food. I had to buy presents, make presents, and work on my portfolio while I was at home. Fortunately most of the friends that I have been hanging out with during the break are obsessed with being skinny, so eating is never an issue when I'm out with them. I usually feel very lonely on Christmas Eve and Christmas, as I'm sure a lot of you do too, and this year wasn't much different. I love the days leading up to Christmas, but the day before and the actual day itself are miserable, and loneliness usually causes me to eat a lot. I binged a lot on Christmas and I'm scared that I've gained, but I still have no scale to weigh myself on. Hope you all had happy holidays. |
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[Dec. 26th, 2009|01:21 pm] |
back to 110 after drinking and eating...i went low carbing for a while so when i got drunk i decided i missed bread and ate like a half a loaf of it...i never thought id miss it that much. inhibitions about food go out the window and i pig out. so ya all my good work out the window.
I would love if someone had same stats as me and would work together :) |
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| asfslkfsa;lfksal;fas |
[Dec. 25th, 2009|04:25 am] |
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ok........i have had anorexia for 3 damn years.. how is it that i am at my heaviest weight at just a bit over 100? ok yah. im 17... i hit puberty...boobs..hips.. thighs....blah blah......oh and that stupid relationship that made me eat eat eat......well now i have bulimia too..she has helped..but ana is disappointed in me....ill find that girl thaat was 92pounds..i MUST find her.............. |
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[Dec. 24th, 2009|04:59 pm] |
Herro all!
I'm kitty :)
I have been a member of this community for some time now but I rarely use lj for much these days and didn't realize I was a part of this community ^_^
hope everyone is having a merry christmas and happy holidays! (if you're celebrating) I'm trying to not worry about treats and desserts here and there but it's really hard.. I miss my normal routine and it's hard to adjust.
But holidays are only a few days out of the year, right?!
I'm 20 1/2 years old,
to be technical I'm 5'3 1/2"
stats:
CW 102
HW 109
LW 94
GW ..
I just want to be less than 100 pounds again tbi.
( more about me.. ) |
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[Dec. 24th, 2009|04:15 pm] |
Ugh. I miss school all ready because I want to start my days off exactly like this.
A cigarette, tea, and my computer.
I have to settle with my tea and a computer. Not good enough. |
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